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Forgiven

Posted in Forgiven with tags , , , on June 8, 2009 by greatvictories

God's forgiveness

Don’t cease abiding in His love, and don’t drift away from an intimate relationship with Him. Its time to heed the still small voice within!!

Don’t go to the pigpen, that place of shame and self-condemnation! For the only place my needs will be met is in my Father’s embrace.

Realize my error and motives ~ change anything that’s not comfortable with love. True repentance involves a change of heart and change in actions.

Change my heart attitude from selfishness to brokenness and humility as I realize, no matter how much I fail, my PaPa’s waiting for me with out stretched arms!

When I’m faithless, He remains faithful, for He cannot deny Himself. (2Timothy 2:13)

When I fail, He doesn’t approach me with a heavy rod of correction, He runs to me, ready to welcome me back into His embrace with all the fullness of His forgiveness and love.

He exchanges my fig leaves of shame (fear, insecurity, guilt, loneliness, escapism, anxiety, failure) for a royal robe of righteousness. He places His ring back on my finger, restoring me to the place of full sonship in His household.

My child, I love you. I live to take away your shame. Everything is going to be alright. Experience My compassion, My love!

It’s difficult to process PaPa’s love as fast as I want to because there is often hindrances that slow me down, pride, counterfeit affections, hidden core pain from the past, unforgiveness, shame, unresolved conflicts, and judgmentalism that I think I have put all these issues behind me.

I need to let PaPa’s love begin to lift me above the circumstances that have held me back from experiencing intimacy and love.

A river always flows to the lowest point. It flows to those who have been deeply wounded by the sins of others and those whose sins have left them clothed with guilt and shame. It flows most freely to those who are meek and lowly of heart, and who will come to the Father like a little child in need of Daddy’s comforting love.

The heart of the Father is always responsive to those who truly turn to Him, no matter how far from Him I have strayed or how wicked and depraved I might be.

He forgave the people of Nineveh and welcomed them into His presence. (Jonah 3-4)

Jack Winter wrote in his book The Homecoming, “Servant can only bring others to a master, sons are the ones who can point others to their father.”

Until I let go of striving, jealousy, and rivalry in my heart, I’ll lead a life of frustration and resentment.

The love of God is a gift, it’s free and undeserved. There is nothing I can do to be loved by Him any more than I already am, and there’s nothing I can do to lessen His love. His love is unconditional, but if its not experienced on a level that brings healing to the childhood hurt and anger at not feeling unconditionally loved, a resentment and critical attitude often results.

PaPa, I’m aware of my sins…pride, envy, resentment, jealousy, anger, spiritual ambition, self-righteousness, sin against love, worry, doubt, gossip, self-love, lying…I repent and ask Your forgiveness, and I receive that forgiveness. I allow Your Spirit to transform my nature and character.

I anticipate the homecoming You have planned for me. Thank You for understanding my hidden core issues, my need for affirmation that stems from issues in my childhood. Thank You that You see the secret place in my heart that cries out for the unconditional love of a father, for the affirmation and affection that only You can provide. Thank You that Your compassion and mercy are available to me and that You long to bring me back to Your house to join in the celebration and the joy of the feast. Thank You that You are not ashamed of me or angry at my misrepresentation of Your love. Thank You that You want me in Your loving embrace.

Restore to me the joy of my salvation. I want to serve You with a pure heart motivated by Your love and compassion for others.

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Embracing My Heavenly Father

Posted in Embracing My Heavenly Father with tags , , , , , on May 27, 2009 by greatvictories

Father embrace

What does a father’s embrace feel like? What is a father’s love? How do I accept or receive it when I don’t know what its like? I vaguely remember my earthly daddy, he went to heaven when I was four years old. What I do remember is his hugs, the smile he always had on his face, laughter, and he always read us stories. I don’t even remember what stories they were, by I sure remember him reading to us and always laughing.

The two step father’s we had were not involved in us kids or any of our activities as we were growing up. Momma was though. She made sure we were loved and well cared for! She made sure we had what we needed ~ including love.

So my journey begins…Being still (which is hard for me to do, I’m a Martha, Martha type gal), so I can seek a fresh insight into the spiritual (Biblical) conception of God as a Father…Seek, and ye shall find…A father’s love and a father’s relationship.

I long to know Him more fully as my PaPa, my Daddy. I long to know the true loving nature of God as Father. I want to come into a life transforming relationship with the One who loves me so passionately! Uncommon love is His gift to me in Christ. He has dealt with my past and He owns my future!

I want to encounter His unconditional affection and feel His unconditional acceptance. I want to hear His tender words of love in deeper ways than I have ever known. I want to live in the present moment filled and surrounded with uncommon love. I want to feel free to “relax” in PaPa’s embrace. Relax? I’m a Martha, remember J

Being a Martha type person it isn’t easy to “be still,” I seem to have to be “doing” something all the time. Larry says he only sees me relax when I’m sleeping…

So it’s a real discipline and lots of praying for me to be still. But its something my Daddy wants me to do so I can be free from all the strongholds holding me from accepting and receiving His love for me.

Move over Mary, here I come, to sit at the feet of Jesus.

To everything there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven. (Ecclesiastes 3:1)

After much prayer, Papa revealed to me that my biggest hindrance to believing that He really loves me is ~ fear and rejection.

So, how can I accept and receive Father God’s love so that I can give it to others?

BELIEVE, TRUST = FAITH

Father God, I ask for a deeper revelation of you and your love…actually experiencing your love breaking forth in my areas of need…Give me a fresh revelation of your power and grace. In Jesus name, thank You. Amen & Amen

LET THIS JOURNEY BEGIN PAPA…

My child, You are the one I love, and on You My favor rests. (Mark 1:11) You were created by God to receive and express love. You have closed your heart to love so you can’t feel the pain that throbs inside your soul.

Love is not about what you do, but who you are.

My love for you is deeper than you could ever imagine! Your mind needs to be renewed by the Holy Spirit until you can truly say as John declared; “And I have come to know (experience) and have believed the love which God has for me. God is love.” (1 John 4:16)

Father God takes delight in you and thinks good thoughts about you all the time. (Jeremiah 29:11) He feels nothing but perfect love when He thinks about you. Love thinks no evil. (1 Cor. 13:5)

About Me

Posted in About Me on March 27, 2009 by greatvictories

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I live on the beautiful Central Oregon Coast, married 29 years, have 2 grown sons, and three beautiful grandchildren, 2 boys and a girl.

I enjoy meeting new people, blessing and encouraging others with the love of God.

Investing in the lives of others that will produce a harvest of blessing and freedom in their lives.

Time waits for no one. Treasure every moment you have. You will treasure it even more when you can share it with someone else.

It is a mandate on my life to share with others what I know in my heart is true. I am to share the gospel of Jesus Christ with all those who don’t know Him in truth and realize that my intervention if accepted will be appreciated for all eternity by the receiver.    (Philippians 4:7-8)  (Romans 10:13-15)

Enjoy the ride! Dream more while you are awake. Remember that this is not Disney World and you certainly don’t want a fast pass. Make the most of it and enjoy the ride! You are too blessed to be stressed.

It is my prayer that you are touch by the Spirit of Almighty God, inspired and  encourage as you read through what God puts on my heart to share.

Beloved, I wish above all things that you may prosper and be in health, even as your soul prospers. (3 John 2)