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Intimacy (into-me-see)

Posted in Intimacy (into-me-see) with tags , , , , on May 29, 2009 by greatvictories

intimacy with God

I am basically afraid of intimacy (into-me-see) because of a deficiency of expressed parental love or because I experienced some traumatic form of rejection in the past. (A bit of both I would say).

So I have set up boundaries and walls to keep people out so I can protect myself from the pain of more rejection.

This is hindering me from having an intimate fellowship with God and a healthy relationship with others.

At the core of this fear is deception…the adversary tells me that God doesn’t love me unless I do this or do that, perform enough to earn His love, thus, increasing the depth of my guilt and shame, which makes it difficult to receive Father God’s gift of unmerited love and favor.

You were created in God’s image, and God is love!

Who’s image do I walk in??? A Martha image, busy doing, doing, doing.

My image of myself will determine the depth of intimacy I will have with God, Larry, my children and others.

Jesus says; “You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul and with all your mind. This is the greatest and foremost commandment. The second is like it, You shall love your neighbor as yourself.” (Matthew 22:37-40)

Its all about love, but I want to make it about everything else. I have put the Great Commission before the Great Commandment.

For years I have been singing “Jesus loves me this I know” and haven’t experienced this truth to the deepest depths of my core need…RECEIVING GOD’S LOVE!!!

Like my momma, for so many years I have been priding myself on my self-sufficiency and my independence, not realizing that this attitude is completely contrary to the nature Father God wants me to have.

The Father’s perfect plan is to provide me with a way to meet the need for intimacy ~ to know and to be known ~  to fellowship with Him and other. I was created for LOVE!

God wants me to have fellowship with Him, but a true relationship with Him will not come at the expense of intimacy with Larry and my family.

“It is not good for the man to be alone, I will make him a helper suitable for him.” (Genesis 2:18)

Adam and Eve stood before one another naked and unashamed. They became one flesh. The fully knew and were known by each other, with nothing hidden, nothing held back. That is true intimacy (into-me-see)!

Because I have been hurt and disappointed at some point in my life…who hasn’t? I’m afraid to take the risk to know others or to be known. I’m holding back in my relationships, afraid to share my true self in fear of rejection.

Jesus came to restore my capacity for love and intimacy, despite all the many times I have been hurt. Thank You Jesus!!

“The Spirit Himself bears witness with our spirit that we are children of God, and if children, heirs also, heirs of God and fellow heirs with Christ.” (Romans 8:16-17)

In Jesus, I inherited all that was lost in the fall ~ not only healing, joy and salvation, but also my capacity to love fully and to be loved.

My responsibility is to allow intimacy (into-me-see) to become a priority in my life.

I am showing love to everyone else, but I am denying true intimacy with Larry. I’m not embracing my full responsibility for walking in PaPa’s love. OUCH…I repent right now!

It’s like, I need other people to praise my accomplishments in order to feel good about myself…OUCH! STOP, DON’T!! I am God’s favored child, base my self-worth on who God created me to be ~ a gift of His love to others.

It’s God’s love, not my achievements that will fill the void in my life, in my heart. If I don’t feel good about myself, it’s difficult to achieve true intimacy (into-me-see) with Larry.

As I begin to submit to a lifestyle of love and intimacy, God is faithful to transform my nature in ways I would never imagine!

Practice opening up my heart and allow the love of PaPa God to flow through me to Larry and my family.

God’s a lover looking for a lover, so He fashioned me. God’s a lover looking for a lover so he formed my heart. There should be nothing more normal on earth than being a lover!

Begin to foster genuine intimacy (into-me-see) in my relationships! I can’t withdraw from the bank what I haven’t deposited.

Until I have an encounter with PaPa God and allow His unconditional love to fill the hurt and empty places in my heart, it is difficult to pour out love to others.